i adore this girl more than anything else.
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it’s all good
sometimes, especially after something super stupid or shitty or dumb or, well, really, just stupid - i get this overwhelming feeling as if i’m drowning and i’ll never taste oxygen again.
and then that is all i can think about, all-consuming thoughts and moments and just not-good-ness.
but the moment eventually comes where thinking about all of the stupid shit is simply just that. it’s just stupid. thinking about it won’t change any of it. and none of it really matters a little bit later anyway.
so all i’ve been thinking about today are all the things i am thankful for,
and how to make whatever is bad better.
cos nothing is really bad and you never fail if you never stop trying.
perhaps that is why i am still here… and smiling.
on this 28th day of may
simply just collapsed.
i’m exhausted, discontented, and unsure. really quite sad.
but i am home and beginning to feel calmed.
definitely excited for being a counselor in the wilderness in ten days, though
thats for sure!
i like things to be good.
i’m definitely looking forward to that again at least.
soon, perhaps?
the big 2-1
a birthday is just another day..
but its a great day cos there’s lots of hugs and lovins from my girl and my friends
yeehaw! :]
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today’s the day
packing up my car, and i’m on my way.
don’t know when i’ll be back folks, but have a lovely weekend/beginning of spring/some sunny days :]
the world spins madly on
today, i finished my junior year of college. woah.
and in two days from this very moment,
i will have my arms around my girlfriend again.
i cannot believe its been 234 days since i have done that..
time goes by fast.
i honestly am not sure how i feel.
there are too many emotions.
oh my.
so i’m sitting here, writing art history final paper number two.
and as i’m trying to argue that these three works are perpetuating and not critiquing or addressing social issues, my paper up and decides to respond to me,
“no sky, i have to say i disagree.”
and now i am sitting here listening calmly and intently to its argument.
(but really. i’m just thinking about tumblr.)
in the midst of final exam writing, i noticed my lil rattail hangin out and touching my shoulder finally. he’s grown long.
(this is procrastination.)
the dog bite (for clarification!)
since i got a whole slew of nervous comments and messages about my finger -
i still have my finger! its my middle finger on my left hand (my guitar playing hand, but please. dont remind me D: ) and basically, there are two puncture wounds that separate the tip of my finger (so the opposite side of the nail) from the nail. it got separated in half that way, so no bone was broken.
i was taken to the hospital and they said there may be some nerve/sensitivity damage, but there’s nothing that they could do about it at that point and they were pretty sure i would regain sensitivity in a few days or weeks.
i didn’t get stitches because they didnt want to seal in an infection - and its been about 32 hours and has just slowed the bleeding finally.
i have pictures on my phone of the gauzey hand-bloody mess, but it isnt very exciting so no need to be morbid :P
and last of all, the main concern is rabies. i’ll get the incident report tomorrow and be able to contact the owner (actually, i’m not entirely sure if they found out the dog or owner) for proof of having had its rabies shots/not having rabies.
however, if undocumented or unknown, i could be in big trouble as the rabies vaccination is thousands of dollars (2-7,000 depending on the state) and, well. that just isn’t really going to happen with my sort of financial situation and health insurance.
so fingers (the ones that aren’t bit, if you have been bit as well ;] ) crossed my friends!
and you ask how i can be positive and calm about it -
well. the fact of the matter is. if i have rabies or nerve damage or whatever - there is absolutely nothing i can do about it now. so why waste my time being bummed? i mean, bummer about rabies because i’ll die painfully. but i’m hopeful that the rabies will not be happenin to this here body of mine. (still.. fingers crossed..)
p.s. i hope that dog enjoyed my veggie burger, cos i was really excited for it.
good vibes
although yesterday i landed myself in the hospital after a dog bit a veggie burger out of my hand and took half my middle finger with him,
i’m still gettin good vibes!
and that, my friends,
is a good way of describing how i’ve been feelin lately.
this year has been a series of unfortunate events,
but fortunately, there have been enough fortunate events to make the whole deal worthwhile.
whew. otherwise, it woulda been a close call.
been doing interval training for the past 5 weeks for cardio, plus i’ve almost doubled the amount i can lift in just three months, plus some awesome raw vegan protein shakes to supplement..
steadily gaining muscle feels nice :]
