old scars - an original

one rough take, one track - sounds like what i’m probably going to be doing for this whole album since i don’t have much time before summer adventures!

since i played it for her the other night on skype, figured i can share here ;] this is hypothetically the 6th or 7th song on the 11-song album. wahoo!

lyrics:


lately i’ve been doubting your love more than i’ve been loving you
and that’s not fair
and now all of these old scars are becoming new
but i don’t care
lately it’s been a whole lot of give and take
so i’ve been giving
in to all of that’s left and what’s at stake
but to keep on living ?

and if you ask me, yeah, i’m fuckin lonely, yeah, but that’s okay.
and if you ask me, yeah, i’ll still be here come may.

i shake these sad songs out of my pockets,
tell em to get lost
start each day with an empty canvas
and some painted paws
yell i love you towards the southwest
phone call without the cost
maybe you’ll hear it and come back to me
this is love on pause

and if you ask me, yeah i’m still pretty lonely, yeah, but that’s okay.
and if you ask me, yeah, i’ve been counting down the days til may. 

it calms me down just to remember how
your love puts me at rest
thank goodness i’ve still got a few more months
to grow into my best
and you will trace the scars that are fading fast
across my naked chest
as i trace the veins straight to your heart
across your breast,

and you may ask me, yeah, are you still lonely?
no way.
and you may ask me, yeah, are you still in love?
always. 

rough take of the valentine’s day song
that i wrote for the album i’m writing for my girlfriend.

there’s between seven and ten songs so far on it and i will share em more after she’s back, since i don’t really want her to listen to em ahead of time ;]

but yes. i’m not very fond of this, but figured i’d share considering the day and everything! 

sweeter than the sea - an original
(rough take was posted over the summer, but this is the final :] )

make me coffee make me tea make the bed make love to me
i’ll write you songs tell you stories, maybe even read you some poetry
we will stagger we will crawl but we will never look back at all
you’ll run away and i’ll be fine, dancing in the summertime..

someone asked me, “did you see her last night? she was on fire.”
so i came running with my arms up high,
i won’t let you die, no.

braid your hair give or take yeah this could be our first date
scratching skin, sinking in, oh how i could never let you win
you don’t believe in anything, you read my books and laugh and sing
and in the morning we are shy, so it goes, so it goes.

someone asked me, “did you see her last night? she was on fire.”
so i came running with my arms up high,
i won’t let this die, no.

oh this is sweeter than the sea yeah it is everything we need,
pouring nectar in our tea and saltwater on our teeth.
yeah this is sweeter than the sea oh it is everything we need,
pouring nectar in our tea and saltwater on our teeth..

make me coffee make me tea smoke some weed, make love to me
i’ll write you songs, tell you stories, maybe even read you some poetry
and we will stagger, we will crawl, but we will never look back at all
you’ll run away and i’ll be fine, dancing in the summer time..

and someone asked me, “did you see her last night? she was on fire.”
and of course i did, i’m always by her side.
she keeps me alive.. 

anna - an original
(check out lentilsanddirt.bandcamp.com, yeah?) 

so what was it that you said?
i’ll never forget the way you meant it..
the wind whispered in my ear,
“i just wish you were here.”

the days were dark when you were gone,
you always held the sunlight in your arms -
so darling won’t you please just share?
i just wish you were here.

and i was trying to run away,
the most dangerous part is
the first time i tasted summer was on your lips.

don’t hesitate and don’t be afraid,
whats up with all these dumb rules we’ve made?
let’s just throw em all away.

the days were dark when you were gone,
you always held the sunlight in your arms.
you’ve got the most beautiful,
well, goddamn, everything.

and i will miss the home that i knew,
and i will miss the light behind you,
but darling, i’ll be honest here.
i’m just going to miss you.

so what was it that you said?
i’ll never forget the way you meant it.

first day of my life (bright eyes cover)
since i was snagging things i recorded in videos long ago to send off with my girl,
i figured i may as well share this gem from a little over a year ago.

causethisismyblog:

skylark11:

drowned (poem) - written back in march of this year

the waves climb the cliffs and kiss my cheeks leaving them cold
salt burned among tide pools i am sprawling, coming clean, right as
the ocean reaches up, lacing her fingers between my toes and pulls me in her undertow
salt burned among the ocean floor, i am crawling, becoming weak.
lacing her fingers between my toes, holding on to my soul
i cough out her blood among the rocks and foam.
salt burned lungs among other things, i am grabbing fistfulls of seaglass sifting through rocks in my palms, blinded and angry,
but not mad at her, only the situation.
i throw punches like a boxer, propel my knees through the water
i am at peace with drowning so i move slowly
my hair is tangled among kelp and i am naked rising from the bottom, a monster of the deep.

lately, i have been making promises i can’t keep.

as she wraps her arms around my shins, i splinter before breaking even.
oxygen, my friend, offers no helping hand and i would take the burn of salt over the burn of sun any day.
shoulders up, i float until the next wave climbs over me, kissing my ribs, leaving them cold.
one after one they follow suit to leave my body frozen, alone.
each kiss is nothing but a passerby wishing me good luck, but hoping that i have the worst.

i know you have no good intentions, but you are the only consistency i have known.

she laces her fingers between my toes one last time and as i sink
i settle to the thought that maybe this is how it was meant to be;
salt burned among my veins, i am sprawling, coming clean.

lately i have been making promises i can’t keep. 

 this is such an amazing poem

i’ve renewed my passion again for putting poetry to sounds, and i hope this coming year i will be able to keep writing and writing :]

8 million beats - an original
first recording in garageband. the final should be pretty good i hope!

my darling, don’t you worry about anything
this will be here singing and swimming in your dreams
and i’ll hold you like i hold onto the sea -
she slips through my arms sometimes but always comes back to me
oh oh oh
my darling in 8 million beats you’ll be gone
but in 28 million you will be back in my arms
and i see you in the moon sun and sky
on the mountain tops where i will let my body lie

and if you should find yourself doubting my love
just know i’m yours, i can’t say it enough
and out of all of these things i swear i love-
well it’s always you i’ll be singing of
oh oh

my darling in seven months i’ll still be here
with empty arms and a smile so wide my dear (is how it should go heh)
yeah i’ve seen you always in my day dreams
and i’ve saved your space so when you return you can lay next to me

but if you should find you never want to come back
just send me a line, i’ve got my backpack packed
i will walk to you and bring the new day
hey i’ve always needed to run away!
oh oh

(repeat first verse)

but if you should find somebody new
i’ll be ready and i will not blame you
just follow your heart and i’ll rewrite my dreams
hold you in my hands then send you back to sea
oh oh.